At first, I spent more time worrying about whether I was meditating properly than actually meditating. I thought a “good” session meant a quiet mind, no busy brain, not getting easily distracted, and I expected instant calm.
It took a while for me to I realise there is no perfect meditation, and don’t get me wrong some days are restless. Some are calm. Some feel pointless. And all of it still counts, it’s part of the process so be kind to yourself for learning and doing something new and different.